#I am rambling

[angelicvigilante]

I was just holding a one month old kitten, and I am now imagining Satan holding some really, really young kitten.

His hands that he (mostly) uses to destroy, cradling the kitten close as it falls to sleep in his arms, head lolling to the side as a little button nose and closed eyes stare back up at him. Looking around for the kittens mom, because he knows he won’t be able to keep it, almost sobbing mentally at the idea of letting such a little thing go, especially when it’s mom isn’t near. Satan knows, knows he could bring it to the shelter—

Find someone who wants a cat, but he can’t bear the thought of it as he holds such a little life, mewing when he walks around; Still searching for whatever cat gave birth to it. Maybe he will, maybe he won’t, but he knows he can’t have it for himself, even if it’s small and needs a home.

:P

[winterxgardener]

Somewhere between there and that, they found happiness and love. 💚💙

[gigisriley]

hey do you know charlie from the pim halloween bump. thinking about him today.

would you read a fic about him i’m being so serious rn

[hilarioushilarity]

my personal little headcanon is that Simon becomes one of the best pro-bono lawyers in Sweden.

A not insignificant part of the motivation would be something that Wilhelm (ironically) said in S2E5: "You don't understand. August would have the best lawyers in Sweden protecting him…you wouldn't stand a chance." I feel like those words would've lodged themselves in the back of Simon's mind, but that they'd begin to come back to him more and more as time went on, particularly after S3E1 when he comes face to face with August's stepfather - who is considered one of the best lawyers in Sweden.

Admittedly, the main reason why August's stepfather could force an agreement was the fact that a) The Royal Court didn't want to pursue charges against August, and b) August had the very real blackmail material which was Simon's own drug-dealing in S1. However, I also think that even if August didn't have that leverage, Simon would've been in for a very painful time trying to win against August's stepfather and his considerable resources. Without the Royal Court backing Simon, I genuinely don't know if Simon could've made much ground in the legal system - then again, I don't know much about how the Swedish legal system works.

At any rate, with what did play out, I've always felt Simon's character is the kind to have taken that loss and then thought to himself - I never want anyone else to feel so powerless. I never want anyone else to have to simply back down because they don't have access to a lawyer who has the compassion to want to help and the ability to do so. I think this would've galvanised Simon, made him think - hang on, I could be that person.

The question is, of course, whether being a lawyer suits Simon's character. My own feeling is that it would, regardless of whether he goes down the solicitor or barrister route (or any of the many other routes that are available). I think he would actually excel at being a barrister (the lawyer who specialises in presenting arguments in court), because we know he's got the confidence to speak his mind. We also know that he's great at formulating and delivering take-downs that are backed up with logic (Why is it called tax "evasion" but welfare "scam"? It's all right that rich people cheat, but when poor people do it, it's messed up.) Granted, this is when he's sixteen and in a classroom - but I'd argue that it takes guts to speak up like that when you're surrounded by people who actively, vociferously disagree with you. Imagine what he'd be like in about ten years' time, after finishing a university degree and doing a few internships.

Anyway, this got super long, but it's a thought that's been percolating in my mind for the past year or so. Simon Eriksson has what it takes to make an amazing lawyer - but he can just as well go pursue something else. With what we've seen of his character, I don't think anyone can deny that he'd excel at whatever he puts his mind to.

[yangyangchuu]

ivantill ruining my life. what if till gave that flower crown to ivan on purpose because he wanted to reach out and be friends with him only for ivan to destroy them because he knows that the flowers are cameras?? but to till, it was a loud and blatant rejection of his friendship, of his reaching out first oh mygod and then he reacted the only way he knew how and started a fight with ivan. what if its the reason he started distancing himself from ivan (and by extension mizi, for fear of being rejected the same wayurhvsh), and ivan not understanding the distance started doing anything to get his attention again i am sick???!

quite contrary to what ivan thought what an unreliable narrator that'd make him lmfao

idk if i made sense bc i legitimately just woke up and had Thoughts(⁠ ⁠･ั⁠﹏⁠･ั⁠)

[outer-edges]

i think we need to talk more about how in daredevil s2, karen is the first person to cross the line around frank's bed in the hospital room. that taped line is small, but it's everything. it's a physical representation of the line that separates the evil (frank) from the good (everyone else). it shows the way everyone separates frank from his emotions and his humanity, it’s the black and white morals everyone else is viewing the situation through, and the way everyone sees him as a monster because of what he's done, regardless of his reasons. everyone except karen. she doesn't care about crossing the line, even when matt is pulling her back.

this can also be read as the reason why karen and matt will never work. because karen is willing to cross that line in order to find the truth, which is where justice lies in her eyes. she doesn't hold herself, or anyone else, to the same exact moral standard matt does, and matt pulling her back is the reason they would have inevitably fallen apart even without the intervention of both frank and elektra. it's important to note that he is not "holding her back" by any means because for the most part they are on the same side and neither are necessarily one hundred percent right or wrong, but they are just fundamentally incompatible because of internal values and moral codes. matt will NEVER cross that line, but karen has and is willing to do it again.

it's also why her and frank are perfectly matched for each other in a way (though, they will never work out because of the thousand and one other circumstances holding them apart, but that's a completely different set of issues) because even though frank is in the wrong for killing all those people and karen doesn't agree with his methods, shit, she understands them. she's killed people, not for the same reasons at all, but she has. she's killed, and she's willing to go to any lengths to find truth and justice, and she knows that about herself. she sees those parts of herself - the parts she may not like that much - mirrored in frank.

[blairwld]

every time Alicent and Rhaenyra are having their church conversations this is all i see

[imthepointe]

one thing about annie that i love is that in most of her official arts with armin, she is wearing pink/more girly and feminine things — because armin treats her and allows her to feel not like a weapon but a woman, and no one had treated her like that before him. and with armin, she can express that girly side of herself and enjoy things like pinks and purples, flowers, and styling her hair because armin allows her to feel like it’s okay to enjoy those things now 🫶💞🥹

[snuey-o]

Writing my own Wind fics because I’ve read every fic under the Wind Tag is another type of pain—I haven’t written a fic in over four years please save me from myself.

[alivingtypo]

the cool thing about 911 is that it was built like a queerbait while also having queer characters from the beginning. i love hen sm and love that her sexuality wasnt some bombshell but was clear from day one. but here me out. the buddie of it all felt like a queerbait for so long so a fandom built up with really good fanfiction (shows with queerbaits always end up having the best fic) and just so much angst but now half of that popular ship is canonically queer and the show has kinda backed itself into a corner where (to me) buddie has to go canon (seriously there is no other way for it to go without feeling inauthentic) this weird weewoo show was like here is some queer rep but also here is a queerbait and we all just hung on and fought for long enough for it to basically no long be a queerbait (??) i feel like im not making any sense i am just excited for s8 and the potential of queer eddie (give me demi!eddie you cowards)

[takeyourcyanide]

The Depiction of Static as a Metaphor for Madness (Franken Stein)

I both adore and appreciate the way in which Stein’s persistent struggling was depicted in the anime as an old radio playing nothing but static, and not only because it’s just so damn accurate to the actual experience.

To begin, the detail of the radio being so very clearly old represents his struggles not being new, having been something he’s been desperately attempting to repress, control, and manage for years upon years. The static, a sound typically considered fuzzy, annoying, and difficult to discern, perfectly represents the product of the never-ending war between both sides of oneself - the “mad” side that desperately wants to give in, for just giving up would be almost pleasurable, peaceful, and the side that desperately fights to hold onto any semblance of reason. It is a persistent and incessant, even downright incoherent fight - constant bickering that leads you to feel as though your head is stuffed full and ready to explode, leaving it to feel fuzzy and scrambled, making it difficult to even live. It is physically painful, and feels like static in your mind. For static is the same repeated sound over and over again, and as I said, indiscernible and incoherent, annoying - like the ruthless buzzing of a fly in your ear. It leaves you feeling like you’ll vomit up each and every one of your internal organs, it is complete and total misery.

The fact that he is covering his ears, trying to ignore and repress the static, is so fucking accurate and important. Just to live and continue to work day to day, one who experiences this (speaking particularly about psychosis and generally schizophrenia and my own personal experience here) must force it all down, ignore it the best you can until you make it home again, and find yourself alone. You aren’t allowed to suffer because then your work would suffer, you’d lose whatever life you had, you’d lose everything. Even if you are straight up catatonic, it seems as though you will always be bothered and interrupted by the outside world. Not to mention, confronting the war head on is not only terrifying and daunting but also almost impossible, at least so it seems. It’s like you have to choose a side. And when your head is all full up with the screaming match, you are left just wanting to cover your ears and hoping that it’ll all go away - you beg and plead for silence. A silence you may never get.

The fact that Marie managed to shut the noise up by telling Stein to accept himself as he is, to simply allow the fight to happen, to recognize that the war may never end but that they’d always be there for him as he fought it presents a much more hopeful image than I am, at least, used to seeing (again, speaking about psychosis and schizospec shit).

I could really go on about this, especially the noise and how nice of an idea it is to simply let go and be free, but I’ll save that all and go into further detail later.

[winterxgardener]

Shayne's POV Courtney's POV

[thiswomanshouldbewriting]

The thing about Aziraphale is that he still can't accept that Heaven does not equal Good.

Throughout the centuries, he keeps seeing Heaven shrugging off or even downright supporting horrible things that hurt humanity, and he keeps justifying them as just being mistakes, or bad managment, or the result of the fact that angels do not quite grasp how humans work. When everything else fails, he brings up the ineffable plan, sure that even if he does not see the point, there is a point.

He sees how good Crowley is and of course he assumes he'd like to be an angel again. Of course he's happy when he gets offered exactly that chance.

Aziraphale has long been terrified of what Hell might do to Crowley, just as much as he's terrified of Falling. But, we learn, he already once made a choice that he thought would make him Fall. He hleped Job and his children, determined to do the kind thing even when it went against the divine plan. Which probably now hurts Crowley even more, because from his perspective it sounds like "Aziraphale was wiling to defy Heaven for humans, but he is not willing to defy Heaven for me."

But the way Aziraphale sees it is: "You Fall was always a mistake, let me fix it." No more bad managment, no more mistakes. Aziraphale can finally make Heaven work the way it was meant to.

What is it ever gonna take to make Aziraphale see the truth? I think that being in charge is exactly what he needs. I think he needs to see that this is not a case of bad managment, this is an insistutional problem. I think he needs to be in the position where he is supposed to punish an angel who, in his eyes, did nothing wrong. And I think that angel is gonna be Muriel.

"It's different when it's someone you know."

[capobegone]

I literally just had the stunning revelation that both the head of the Demon Slayer Corps and the actual Demon King have had the strangest gender experiences lmfao?? Kagaya is like yeah haha I was raised as a girl my whole childhood and then suddenly I became an Adult Man at the age of four :) and meanwhile Muzan shows up in full drag to a business meeting and then proceeds to murder all of his employees??? Absolutely unhinged and I love it to death because you just KNOW that transphobia doesn’t fly in either organization. Kagaya and Muzan have one (1) shared idea and that is fuck the gender binary I said what I said

[ifuckinglovelemondemon-srs]

Every lemon demon fan is either gay, autistic, mentally ill, a loser or all of the above, there are no other options, is the law (i am autistic and mentally ill)

[maximura]